I have a not-intentionally problematic relationship with a friend, and I was again in the rock and hard place position, where the choice is either to bring up a concern with her following through on things, or keep my mouth shut and internalize it.
A little background on the situation, we were fairly close for about a year, during which she spread herself thinner and thinner and thinner, and as the time progressed, she had less and less time for me (flaking out on meetings and such) so I left the situation, in order to make it less stressful for me. A few months ago, the situation looked to have improved, due to the removal of some toxic people around her, so I tentatively reopened the door.
She’s had some injuries which have hampered her dance, and I can understand that, but the six weeks I’ve been waiting for the private lessons to actually start – start date was to be November 4, I’m just seeing the follow through not happening again. It disappoints me greatly, as I was really looking forward to this. Also, right now, I have more freedom with my schedule, since I’m off Mondays, so I was hoping to take advantage of it.
I brought it up last night, since there was a change to our meeting time as well as the cancellation of lessons until the new year, and I’m somewhere between slightly depressed and very disappointed on one hand, feeling like a complete bitch for bringing up my concern on another, and since I’m special and have more hands, being pissed off on a third, because the same pattern looks to be happening again.
I’m still willing to do the privates, but unless we can find a time that works for both schedules, I’m afraid the net result is going to be that I’m disappointed. Compromise has been offered via text, we shall see.